Things that I've done wrong

Recently, I've really done a big mistake which I've had a big quarrel with my family. Sometimes, I feel that I didn't do anything wrong and just 1 2 explain but for them they feel that I didn't respect them at all and said that I'm arguing with them and don't 1 2 listen 2 them. I think it is because of my disrespect to my parents, always quarrel with them has caused me lost my chance 2 see the handsome guy in my company. This is the karma that I get after having a big quarrel with my family. Before I have a big quarrel with my parents, I will have the chance to see the handsome guy (Caven Hong Yih Kwang) in my company quite frequently.. However, after I have a serious quarrel with my family, I get the karma which I didn't have chance 2 see the handsome guy Caven Yih Kwang anymore... This is the revenge I get for being so bad 2 my family and I should accept it... I really don't know how 2 change my character...feels that whatever I did was always wrong... everyone also said I was wrong... really don't know how 2 do only can consider correct... I was really no mood 2 do anything now... feels like I've spoilt the whole family!!! y am I such a bad girl?!! how can I become such bad?!! must faster correct my bad habits... don't let it become worst!!! please be a good girl!!! don't choose 2 be the bad side!!!