sad moment

i feel that all the time i was really stupid... i didn't think of my friend has gf already n i shouldn't always ask him 2 go out n also always ask him 2 fetch me go here n there.. actually, last time when i ask him whether he has gf or not that time, he told me that he didn't have any gf n i also believe in what he said.. y am i so stupid 2 believe that he hasn't have any gf? he so handsome n so rich it's impossible didn't have any gf... now only i realize that all the while i was so stupid in believing that he hasn't have any gf... i really feel guilty that last time i always ask him 2 go out n also ask him 2 fetch me here n there... i have wasted his time 2 spend with his gf... i really really felt guilty n stupid now.. some more recently i also stress with my fyp n many other assignments, projects, presentations n so on really makes me feel down everyday.. i really scared n really worried what will happen 2 my future? once i'm thinking bout my future i was so down n frustrated... feels like there r too many bad things has happened on me that makes me feel so down... now the only way 2 be happy is listen 2 some relaxing songs n pray 2 God.. wish Goddess of Mercy will help me n bless me 4 my future, my fyp 2  pass n all my subjects that i've taken will also be pass... that's my only wishes4 my entire life... really wish can graduate smoothly n can found a great job that can earn a lot of money... then i'll buy a house n a car 4 my parents n also another hse n car 4 my own... after that, if i still have money left, i wish i can go travel 2 korea... really wish that i can go those places that the director of korean drama have shooting drama before... really wish i can see n feel those beautiful places in reality.. haha if have fate i also wish i can meet with those korean artists who r my idol... i 1 2 take pictures with them... haha...

disappointed

really disappointed with my friend... she is quite my close friend... i was so disappointed that the moment she knew i was got into an accident, she didn't even care 2 ask me whether am i still fine or not... she knew my accident quite long time ago but she didn't even text me 2 ask me how was my situation recently... i know she busy but i don't think can be so busy till didn't even have time 2 text me a message 2 care 4 me... or maybe because most of the people dislike 2 mix with bad luck person n dislike 2 see or hear bout people which is so pity... from here i know true friend r really hard 2 find... when the moment u needed them the most that time, they r running away n staying away from u... those friends r just will enjoy with u when u r rich but will stay away from u when u r poor... but what 2 do? in this reality world, most of the people r materialistic n they will only mix with u when u rich n staying away from u when u r in trouble... this was makes me really disappointed... really wish 1 day i can found a true friend who will always stay besides me no matter what has happen 2 me n will always care 4 me... but, seems like this true friend was really difficult 2 find... true friend is the 1 who will always stay besides u no matter how busy they r n will always stay besides u no matter u r rich or poor or unlucky...

poor life

the moment when u r being poor, life was really miserable... those delicious food that is in front of u is seducing u 2 buy it...however, once u think of u r poor n r not able 2 buy the food which u wanted 2 eat so much that time was really suffering.. u can see many people r enjoying the food while u just can standing besides them watching them enjoying the food without having the chance 2 enjoy it by your own... moreover, there r times that i can feel some people dislike me because of my attitude of being too stupid n ask stupid questions... i'm a person who easily get hurts when people r comment about me... i will not be able to bare with and endure with people's comment about me... i will feel very down n sad when people comment about me.. i will feel more sad if the people that comment about me is my friend who is quite close with me..

those bad luck i've gone through...

recently i really gone through those bad luck moments... i've been involved in an accidents for 2 times... 1st is road accident n the 2nd is been robbed.. now i've gone through those pain, suffering, stressful n emo moments... now really living in a life on without money, stress with final year projects, assignments, quiz, test, final exam, presentations n also need 2 attend classes 4 the program that i've taken.. all these stressful moments really makes me feel so down... living in a life without money was so suffering because when the moment u r hungry, u will not be able 2 buy the food u wanted 2 eat so much n just can see those people eating so deliciously while u just can see them enjoying it without having the chance 2 try it also... moreover, not just hungry, those projects, assignments, presentations will also makes u so stress with it till makes u really down.. living in a life without money n the tension of the projects really can makes your life feel so down... moreover, the moment when u r feeling down, u r not able 2 go back home or go 4 outing 2 release stress because of no money n really nothing can do... living in this world that is so materialistic, without money really cant survive longer... u will feel like really suffering n really down 4 your entire life... but, never mind i believe that this is the test God give me. God is testing my patience n see whether i can endure with it or not... if i'm able 2 endure with it, then god will makes me become rich in the future... however, another thing that makes me more worried about is my final year project.. i was so scared n worried that am i able 2 done it n submit it by this week.. this really makes me so scared, worried, down... really wish i'm able 2 done it n submit it by this week... being poor at this moment i will be able 2 endure it but if i can't submit my final year project by time, it will makes me feel like my world is ends... i rather wish that Goddess of Mercy can help me 2 finish up my project better than let me become rich.. cause in this moment projects is more important than money... it will be fine of being poor as long as i can submit n complete my fyp is better than being rich.. i will be very very happy if i'm able 2 complete n submit my fyp by this week.. Godess of Mercy please help me give me enough energy, strength n determination in completing my fyp even though i have no money 2 buy rice 2 eat which can boost up my energy. but i believe as long as Goddess of Mercy give the strength, energy n determination, i will able 2 done n submit my fyp even though there is lack of nutrient 4 me 2 boost up my energy..