sad moment

i feel that all the time i was really stupid... i didn't think of my friend has gf already n i shouldn't always ask him 2 go out n also always ask him 2 fetch me go here n there.. actually, last time when i ask him whether he has gf or not that time, he told me that he didn't have any gf n i also believe in what he said.. y am i so stupid 2 believe that he hasn't have any gf? he so handsome n so rich it's impossible didn't have any gf... now only i realize that all the while i was so stupid in believing that he hasn't have any gf... i really feel guilty that last time i always ask him 2 go out n also ask him 2 fetch me here n there... i have wasted his time 2 spend with his gf... i really really felt guilty n stupid now.. some more recently i also stress with my fyp n many other assignments, projects, presentations n so on really makes me feel down everyday.. i really scared n really worried what will happen 2 my future? once i'm thinking bout my future i was so down n frustrated... feels like there r too many bad things has happened on me that makes me feel so down... now the only way 2 be happy is listen 2 some relaxing songs n pray 2 God.. wish Goddess of Mercy will help me n bless me 4 my future, my fyp 2  pass n all my subjects that i've taken will also be pass... that's my only wishes4 my entire life... really wish can graduate smoothly n can found a great job that can earn a lot of money... then i'll buy a house n a car 4 my parents n also another hse n car 4 my own... after that, if i still have money left, i wish i can go travel 2 korea... really wish that i can go those places that the director of korean drama have shooting drama before... really wish i can see n feel those beautiful places in reality.. haha if have fate i also wish i can meet with those korean artists who r my idol... i 1 2 take pictures with them... haha...